Mind – Body

The mind and body must be connected, for without that connection we can not be affective, that connection is how we express our true selves, that which we use to connect with others on a deeper level, a stage that without that connection we could never reach and we will be lost to wonder aimlessly.

Through deep search and meditation can we see the paths to self, self awareness, self understanding, only then can we begin to self express and show our true self.

Those who can not see or understand have not that connection, and if they choose to remain in their stage they will never grow, they will remain shackled to the mysteries of “what if”, their ability to understand will slowly and soon decay and will never know why.

~Angeli Shixio~

Words of Love 32

I dream of those days,

That I get to wake up next to you, awakening you with my kisses and start my day with your smile.

Angeli Shixio

Words of Love 31

I saw you tonight,

You were as beautiful as ever, the way you looked at me, I can see that you really love me. Although it was only in my dream that I’ve seen you, it is your love that I will never forget.

Angeli Shixio

Words of Love 30

Tonight I will fight my sleep to stay awake,

Too many days has it been since the last and I miss your voice, I miss your words telling me that you love me, most of all I miss to hear the way that you yawn when you’ve awoken from a beautiful dream.

Angeli Shixio

Words Of Love 29

It’s colder without you

As I lay here tonight I can feel the cold from outside, I can hear the wind knocking at my window and the branches of the trees whipping in the breeze. Though I cover myself with this blanket I still feel the cold but the thought of you gives me warmth.

Words Of Love 28

It seems like forever

Though I haven’t heard your voice in a few days I do think of you, I see you in my dreams, I hold you in my heart and I carry you in my thoughts.
Angeli Shixio

W.O.L. From My Personal Collection #2

A walk in the park to feel the cool calm winds, 

To see the leaves fall from the branches of the trees. Walking along the pavement road, a time to my thoughts is much needed. I feel this to be the place to bring you, I feel this is where you would like to go. Together we will walk this path holding hands, stopping every few steps to look into your eyes and tell you that I love you. I will lean for a kiss and you would too. We will hug for a moment then we will continue to walk, enjoying the winter breeze until we hurry back for a hot cup of tea, under a few warm blankets we would cuddle and hide from the cold, and a kiss i would give just to see you smile.
  

Angeli Shixio

Dragon: Fire and Ashes

It starts with a blurry sight, everything is dark and gray,

I’m standing on the top steps outside of this building, all I can hear is the wind blowing as I’m standing there, I squint my eyes to try and make out what’s in front of me, but all I can see is the shapes of what seems to be people walking on the sidewalk and cars passing by on the streets, but I can’t be too sure. The sound of the wind overlaps every other sound and noise, and still all I see is a gray haze. As this gray haze is starting to clear up, I begin to look around to see if I can make out anything at all, as I am standing here anxiously waiting to move. Then everything begins to clear up. I get my sight back then everything goes silent, I don’t hear the wind blowing not a single sound, I can’t hear anything anymore everything is just a complete silence. Though I see the trees being moved, like they are dancing from side to side, by what I can only assume to be the wind. I spot what seems to be an older lady and a young child walking down the sidewalk, grabbing and tightening their coats to prevent the cold from getting in, like they are trying to keep warm. I see from what appears to be snow thats falling, slow and steadily as if it were dancing to a soothing melody from above, covering anything and everything that it lands on.

The first step I take sinks in, then my next step and my next step, I then reach the sidewalk and suddenly I hear sound and it brings me to a holt, I can hear again, its the wind howling in the night, the car’s tires compressing the light grey layer on the street as its passing me by, I hear the sound of the leafs whipping and cut into the air, and at a distance an unusual sound, but yet a sound that is all too familiar but i can’t think of what it could be, my thoughts run crazy as I can’t, for the life of me, remember where have I heard that crackling and snapping sound before. No matter, I start to head down the street, some how I feel as if I’m supposed to head down in this direction, as if I’ve already been through here, like I already know where it is that I’m supposed to go and yet I draw a blank. But it all looks new to me and still I feel i’ve seen this place before, suddenly a flickering like lights grab ahold of my attention. At first glance I thought it to be lightning, as I am certain, that, I have seen this before and that there is no mistaking it, I draw my sights towards the stormy skies, I do so as if to be possessed, but I feel to not want to look away, I do actually want to look. I come to a complete stop, for what I saw I could not believe. Again I felt powerless, stunned at what was of the skies, the brilliant flickering colors of red, orange and yellow, that was being covered by the darkened clouds, but the colors was not what shocked me to nearly a sort of paralysis, but what it actually was I could not believe, I thought it to be unreal, I thought for sure it was a dream, something like this can not be true. Then for a brief moment I felt stuck in shock and unable to move and just like that it came to me, I finally remembered that unmistakable sound, where I’ve heard it, and everything became all so clear but I feared the worst when I saw what was happening in the sky, and that what was falling reminded me of those wonderful nights around Christmas time that covered with a layer all of the ground outside, but it wasn’t snow it was ashes. Ashes is what was falling down from the flames in the sky that was set a blaze from the mouth of the dragon that hovered up above over all the clouds.

A dragon! It was the only thing that was running through my mind. It just kept repeating and repeating and echoing through my mind. I finally come to, but I couldn’t figure out how to react to this. I mean should I be scared? should I run in fear for my life? So instead I decided to run into the nearest tallest building and head to the roof to get a closer look. Still in a sort of shock as I’m running up the stairs I kept asking myself “is this real?”, “is this really happening?”, “what is this that is happening?” and more importantly what am I to do, “shit what am I going to do when I get up there?” “why am i going up there?”. but I couldn’t bring myself to stop or turn back. some how I was drawn to this, I just thought that my curiosity got the better of me. Breathing heavily and running out of breath I’m getting close to the top now. and just like that I cant go any further, I’m on the last floor but there’s no path to the roof. Now I’m running through the halls trying to find a path but I didn’t have any luck, it was strange that there is no path to be found to reach the roof, but stranger still was the last door at the end of the hall that had a light coming through. The door was open, was it left like that? did the people who live there run out and leave it opened? was it opened on purpose? was it meant for me? am I supposed to go through that opened door?. what ever the reason it doesn’t matter now, not at this point, I am already here and I am goin to walk through. As I slowly approach the door I can start to hear my lungs inhale and exhale calm and steadily, my heart starts to slow down but not an ounce of fear, I hear my footsteps start to echo loud at a distance, my eyes sight sharpens to a tunnel vision, my hands are out as if to brace myself for any surprise that might come through that doorway, time slows down and I try not to blink but the sweat from my brow makes it difficult.

I make it to the doorway and before I go through it I take one last deep breath, I close my eyes gather myself and my thoughts, now I am ready. I go and run through the door……….There’s nothing there, its all silent a white emptiness like there is no time and place, everything is bright all around me. It doesn’t make sense to me nothing is adding up, why is this happening? Why am I here? Where is here? Is this supposed to happen? Then the worst thought, the worst question came to mind. “Am I dead?”. I was lost and confused I didn’t know what had happened. My eyes drew big in a shocking state. And then I hear sound, I can hear noise but I sounds far and its getting closer. I feel a breeze, a cool wind that feels as if it were coming through a hole. And just like that I’m back in the room that I had walked through moments earlier. That sound had gotten really close and that cool wind that I had felt, I now can see where it was coming from. The ceiling was being ripped open. And in a blink of an eye the whole ceiling was gone, I was standing in the middle of the room staring at the sky. But it didn’t take long till I was staring into these big windows to the soul, into the eyes of the dragon.

Eyes locked in, body paralyzed, heart steady, mind clear, I am ready, ready for what ever is to happen right here right now. Then I noticed the dragon’s eyes moving in such a unpredictable pattern as if it were looking for something or someone. It slowly starts to get closer and closer to me, it gets very close, at about arms length. I do think that it knows of what I am hiding behind me. Then I realized I am hiding something behind me and I’m gripping it with all my strength ready to give up my life for this, that until now I didn’t know that I had or what it is that I have. But I feel that the dragon knows, but what’s puzzling me is why isn’t it doing anything. I started to move to my left keeping the dragon head at my front, he moves with me. I move again and so does he. Then he gets closer stops and sniffed me a few times, I felt as if I was going to be sucked into the nose of the dragon, such power and I’m surprised it didn’t knock me off of my feet. He suddenly stopes, moves back a bit and stares at me one last time. He turns around and flies away, fading back up into the fire and ashes in the sky. I couldn’t wait any longer I just had to know what it was that I had in my possession, that I was ready and willing to give up my life for, that in which the dragon felt it necessary to tear the roof off of the building for it. I bring it in front of me to see what it was. And to my surprise I see a golden scroll. I didn’t understand I had so many questions racing through my head, I was trying to make sense out of all that had just happened and why did it happen. A scroll to what?, why did I have it?, how did I get it? And why did the dragon just leave if that is what it was looking for?.

This is the end of this letter for it was but a dream. but it wont be the end of the story, I will think up and write more for this letter, like the reason for the dragon, what of the scroll, the reasons for the dragons actions and such. Ill try to keep it as amusing as this letter.

Thank you for taking time from your lives to read these letters. If you enjoyed theses letters please like and share and I hope to have you back to read more of my future letters.

Happy Reading!

Angeli Shixio

Keeping The Faith

It all starts within ourselves,

With our situation, the situation of who we are, of where we are, what we are doing or not doing, when and why we are doing. You see many people do not stop and take a moment to analyze and reflect on all of these, to ask these simple questions let alone find an answer to them. And there in lies the problem.

Now I’m a strong believer of “ask and you shall receive”. So, I am constantly asking, whether its simply thinking about it, speaking about it or even praying about it. From the smallest things like a cup of coffee to bigger things like landing the contract with a new client. I am pretty certain that a lot of you do this too and not even noticed that you do, talk about wishful thinking, huh?. Now most of the time I get what I asked for and I tell this to everyone but there are many who refuse to believe me. Those around me, those who know me and have been with me, have seen this happen to me first hand yet so many of them still don’t want to believe it. Now, I’m also sure many of you feel the same kind of way. You might even say “what the heck is he talking about, this sounds wacky”, okay maybe your not saying wacky, but you get where I’m getting at with this right?.

I understand and I do get it, I was once like that too. I didn’t know it at the time, I was only 19 then. I won’t get into too much details on that just because I don’t want to get sidetracked. I began to venture off into the entrepreneurship world bent on running my own business. So I got started, with a few good men backing me on this venture, everything was going good . I even managed to come across a few people who saw what I was doing and where it was going and wanted to join me in this business run. A few years later before my 22nd birthday I flew out to join the military and this little business I left behind, which was a success by the way, was no longer on my mind like before. A few months had gone by and little by little this business was becoming no more. I didn’t think too much of it as I was starting a new chapter in my life. Now let’s fast forward several years, a few months, some weeks and a couple of days later. I was thinking back on those times and reflecting on what had happened, and then it hit me, how does a young and sophisticated (clears throat) adult manage something like that and yet so many individuals who were much older, much smarter, more experienced and more qualified than I ever was at that time, we’re having a hard time, the worst of luck some might say.

I decided to test the waters, and through many trial n errors I found a missing key feature, (on another letter I’ll write about other key features that coincide with the key feature in this letter), “Faith”. I had lost faith in the business when I left it behind to go off and join the military, it was one of the few things that I had taken for granted. Since then, for the many things that I ask for, I make sure that it is something that I really want and more importantly that I really need.

“Ask and you shall receive”, many of you have tried it and many of you have not. Though sad to say, lots of you ended up with the same results, in disbelief. Many of you prayed for something or another and ended up with a similar result as well. I’m there with you, I completely understand, I’ve been there through my “trial n errors journey”. Now your probably wondering the same thing I was, “why aren’t my prayers being answered?”, up to this point what do you think happens next?. Let me stop here for a moment, now don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that you have to be religious to pray or to ask, hat is not what I’m saying here at all. It is totally up to you if you are or if you are not religious. No, Keeping the faith behind what you are praying and asking for is the main focus here. Ok,  lets continue, what do you think happens next? Bravo Zulu!!! Sorry that’s a term we use in the military for “great job”! (a smiley face and a wink). That’s right you guessed it. You stop believing, you lose your faith and once you’ve lost your faith, that’s when you stop asking. Remember it “ask and you shall receive”, if you don’t ask you will not receive. Then what do you think happens next after that point? Right again, kudos, we’re on a roll here, I like that (smiles then clears throat), yes, you start to give up, that’s another topic I want to get into but on another letter, and giving up on something like this can have a negative impact on other areas of your life. When we give up, things just doesn’t seem right, we start to take things out on others that don’t deserve it, we become lost so to speak.

Okay , so now that we are all on the same page, let’s get into what we can do to get back on the right tracks. Let me start by saying that what we pray for, what we ask for can be answered but when we need it and not when we want it. I mean let’s be honest since when do we know what we really want. Though it is known what we really need and when it is that we need it, you see we can’t have it all. So I encourage you to really think on what it is that you are going for and once you have thought it, make sure you will not give up on that and that you will not lose your focus, that you will keep that faith. I want to also tell you briefly, more in depth in another letter, learn to be patient because it will help you tremendously. It’s okay to pray and ask for what you want, just bare in mind that it’ll come to fruition when needed and not when it’s wanted. Oh and hoping for miracles is not the same thing, that’s on a different scale of its own.

Let us recap. What can be done if you’ve come to be lost, first to those whom haven’t lost the faith keep it up and please share your experience with others. Now for all of you who lost your way and for all of you who’s never tried, we can start by “believing”. Believing in yourself, believing in what it is that you want and what you need, okay? Next we’ll go onto “patience”, we must be patient we mustn’t rush it, it will happen when least expected. I for one think it is to teach us to appreciate it that much more when it happens. Last but not least “faith”, not only having faith but more importantly keeping the faith.

We have come to the end of this letter, hopefully these words will help many of you if not all. I want to thank all of you for taking the time from your lives to read these letters, it has been an eventful ride to write them with all of you in mind and I will continue to write for you.

P.S. If there is a letter you would like to read on here, please feel free to write to me about it and I will make sure I write and share it.

P.P.S. All questions, comments and concerns are highly encouraged, as it will help me write for you my best letters. Again thank you all.

Angeli Shixio

Words Of Love 27

It has been many years

Though with you it feels like its the very first time. The very first crush, the very first time falling in love, the very fist time seeing the sunset, the very first kiss, the very first time waking up and hearing the ocean breeze and I dont want it to end.

Angeli Shixio